Loss of creativity in worship

Do y’all ever feel like getting to know God can be only done in a few ways? Because, I know I sure do. And that really basically follows the title of this post. We’re not creative sometimes. (And really, many of the forms of entertainment nowadays only help facilitate that uncreativity. Like, watching TV, playing video games, myspace, facebook, etc etc.)

It feels like, in order to better know God you have to be well educated. Able to read, write, listen… etc etc. Which, aren’t hard tasks, but …is that weird for me to think? Does anyone else wonder about such things? And then, what many will call worship, is merely playing music. And I love music. Don’t get me wrong, I just think life, love, and adoring Yahweh are bigger than vague generalities on how the masses do it. Please, please read your Bible because it is the Word of God, but I just wanted to jot these ideas down before I forgot them. I hate losing ideas.

This Mars Hill podcast must be really getting to me because I listened to it mere days ago and it was all on creativity and living your life in such a way as being creative. Such as… taking a different way to work, friend’s house, school, or church… messing with your schedule so that if you usually eat, shower, then chill/work/school, you shower first or the night before and go on a walk instead. Something like that. I really like those ideas and there are plenty more, but its just… I want to live creatively because I have been made by a creator. Sometimes I find my life boring and I dont want to. ya know. It’s not. It’s fun, but you have to change things up now and again.

Love,

-Phil

Frustration

So I discovered yesterday that sometimes I just prefer being right and knowing what I’m talking about than loving people and hearing/acknowledging what they have to say.

My coworker said something along the lines of “I think it’s silly that people take the day in Genesis as a literal day when days to God are different than days to men”… (just an example(of probably many!) that really kicked me in the face) because then I responded and was like, “But it says ‘morning and evening’”, etc etc… As if me being right and knowing a bit more about the Bible (than the average person because I do go to Bible school) over rides my responsibility to love others and listen to what they have to say.

I mean, I could go on about the Hebrew “day” and what it means, and even if I am right, I think that comes second(err, last even) to me treating people with dignity and respect and valuing their opinion.

Like, I didn’t yell at that person or anything, but that attitude, thinking that because I know something, really kills any sort of peace found in community and unity I would ever hope to have.

Just figured I’d share.

It’s frustrating though, because learning more about the Bible can give you a sense of pride, when really, it should give you a spirit of humility. And that’s hard to have. How can you talk Jesus or be Jesus when your flesh screams for you not to and to give up and give in. I dunno. It takes a lot of Jesus and seeking the face of God. Which, is something I haven’t done lately. I need to get back into the Word.

So yeah. I’m actually doing pretty good today but sometimes I really realize how prideful or selfish I am and I’m like “wow”, and like, people look up to me. They think I know something. I do, I suppose. But living in knowledge is easier than living in humility. Not that I want to. I want to be more like Jesus every moment I’m awake. But it’s not easy. I think the Church often tricks people when they have an altar call or whatever as I don’t think people really know what they’re getting into. Will God grant you peace? Sure. But it might not be here. On this Earth. In fact, your sense of self-worth, confidence, pride, and all that you can think of as who you are is probably going to be challenged(maybe a better word for that is destroyed, trampled on, obliterated… haha) a lot more as a Follower of Jesus Christ than as an unbeliever. It’s true. Because you’re given the Holy Spirit, it’s imparted into you, but you still live in a body of death.

I hope I don’t sound depressing. That’s not my intention.

I just want to be real and plain and open and I feel like talking right now. I’m kinda stressed out. Got too much stuff to do. And I procrastinate. And I’m tired. Blah blah blah. Haha.

Father, give me the patience with people I need and kindness that over rides knowldege because I know that every person is created in your image and likeness, and not mine. I am but a mere vessel and sometimes I feel overwhelmed (I need a good Christian spiritual leader to talk to on a regular basis, I’ve had this thing I’ve needed to do for Foolswork for about 2 months and I can’t do it. It’s tedious and boring. I guess I just need clear direction.) And then I like to analyze stuff. For example: Why is it that I usually come to you when I need something. It’s like I only ask for stuff. I mean, that’s not always true, but I run through the modes of thought in a conversation and you have questions and statements as the major forms of talk(I know there’s more, but I can’t think of them now) along with other motions, but God, let my time with you be more of me praising you and less of me asking for you to do stuff for me. I dont think its always bad because we have prayer requests for a reason, but I don’t want to ramble on or to waste the time you’ve given me, as I often do.

God, I thank you for all that I have. I feel like I’m in an awkward spot in life because I still live with my parents(my school is just 30 minutes away, so its the most practical anyway), I just joined this metal band and I love the guys there, but I’m almost afraid of commiting to soon to that because then I have Foolswork which I’ve commited to a long time ago as a teacher and follower of the Lord- but I think I can… with your help… get through school, do the band(but what if we start touring or become really big? I dont want my heart to change either. My intentions with the band is to spread the Gospel of Christ, to have fun, and use it as a way of being creative and making a masterpiece or two in the name of the Lord. I just have a lot more things going on than usual and they’re not always easy to handle. But I’ve also not had too much time with you, time in the Word, or time in silence.

I know your word says that you number our footsteps, but at this point in life, I just feel almost all over the place and like anything can happen from there. I have a canyon of uncertainty in front of me. I know what’s happening in the weeks and years to come, but what about when I’m out of school in 2-3 years? Then what? Why is it so hard to just believe in faith that you know what you’re doing? Probably because I wouldn’t know what that is anyway since I’m not in the Word. I discovered that time with you is like a self-fulfilling prophecy if I don’t have it. And its circular. Like, I notice I act differently when I’m not in it than when I am and vica versa. Anyway.

I’m gonna go do that, get a shower(okay, I’m in my room, and its killer hot in here even with my fan on high), practice for a bit, get a move on the spreadsheet, and then practice some more… I’ll get lunch in a bit too.

Again, I’m doing well. But I just have a lot of questions and so this might be more of a post from me to God than to anyone else. Just saying. =)

Awkward post. But whatever.

-Phil

I’m gonna find the most epic picture I can… (the most epic pictures are also the most metal ones)

Right well, I’ve been looking around for nearly an hour now and can’t find a really good epic photo of… anything. Honestly. Why does Google images not have like vikings burning down houses with penguins falling from the sky underwater in the future or something? That’s very epic! So, we’re gonna settle with another metal shot…

 

However… I did find this really interesting HM article (its a magazine, silly) on Living Sacrifice and their struggle with the band and touring and working and kids and marraige and what not.

I like Summer day’s like today

I’ve mostly been running errands, but I prefer that to doing nothing at home all day. I just feel so unproductive and then I get really tired and bored. Eww.

So today’s good.

I… woke up around 9, got some Starbies for my Mom, checked my schedule(AND YES!, I DO HAVE OFF MOST OF NEXT WEEK FOR CORNERSTONE!!!! YAY!), then went back home to eat some muffins my Mom was making… then I’m trying to keep track, as much as possible, this event on facebook(my band will be playing in North Houston on the fifth), then I went to work out, CVS, Walmart, back to CVS to pick up my prescription, called a few people during those runs, then I just got home a bit ago and made fish nuggets. They weren’t very good, unfortunatly. Anyway. Shower. Chill, make a few more calls, then off to work, then to band practice.

Earlier, when I was working out, there was this man on the treadmill who was like doing the funniest stuff! He looking like a barbarian/viking for a bit as he easily could have been carrying an invisible longsword and buckler. Then he would jump while he was running… that was fun to watch. So I dunno. People watching is fun especially when you’re at the gym because people do the most random, weirdest things.

That’s about all I got. Y’all enjoy your day.

 

Peace out,

-Phil

Hair

This is the Showdown.

I’ve decided I think I want to grow my hair about as long as the guy just left of the blonde dude.

I just do.

I might cut it a few more times, get a few more trims, but I think I eventually want it fairly long. =)

That’s all.

The Happening, other M. Night movies, and other random discussion

I just got back from seeing that. I thought it was SO good. It’s… rather hard to explain, without giving away the key elements from the plot, but I just want to say that whenever I see an M. Night movie they teach me some sort of Biblical, spiritual, truth.
- “The Happening”reminded me that no man is a free moral agent. We do not control our own destiny. Our lives are in the hands of God. Believer and unbeliever. This movie might claim that nature might be the culprit for this, but I’ve heard before that M. Night is a christian and I choose to belive he makes movies for a reason- not just to make them. Then again, I do see a lot of Biblical parallels in most movies I see. Okay. Next:
- “Lady in the Water” reminded me that people are put on earth for a purpose. We are not here by random thought or action, but for a specific reason.
- “The Village”… is hard for me to figure out. I should go watch it again. I think that most, if not all, of M. Night’s movies have this kind of reoccuring underlying theme of something at work outside of our control. With “The Village”, that is definitly the case, but I guess this one could be summed up as “not everyting is as it seems”.
- “Signs” reminded me that THINGS, as opposed to people as in “Lady in the Water”, happen for a reason. And that all things don’t happen by random or spontaneity to produce a result but because they were supposed to. It also reminded me that God is in control. God is. Not me. And that He is always looking out for me. So, when life seems dull and boring, I can be comforted by a God who is always active, always personal, and always there.
- “Unbreakable”… I think I actually saw this one twice, but I didn’t think on it like I did the others. It carries the same theme the others do though.
- Lastly, “The Sixth Sense”seems to also reiterate the theme that M. Night has in his other movies. I wish I could say more, but I really didnt think too much on this movie either. I was talking to my cousin, Roy, as we were heading home and I agree that we should have some sort of M. Night Shyamalan movie marathon day. That would be really awesome!

Well. I’m tired. And I work in the morning. I’m not sure what else I really want to say besides that early today I was thinking about “How do I define success?” And I think I’ve answered that before, but I want to reconsider and re-assess what I had previously thought on it. I don’t think it really changed though. Anyway, I’ll go into that some other time. =)

Blessings,

-Phil

P.S. Living Sacrifice has a new song on their profile! It’s called “Death Machine” and you can stream it on myspace and I think you can buy it elsewhere… like itunes.

Here’s a picture of the lead singer doing laundry(because I stumbled across it, seriously, on this dude’s myspace page who they’re touring with)…

Origins.

Yay! So, while reading that book, “Pagan Christianity”, I found my ancestral origin. You see, my Mom always said I was bohemian on my biological Father’s side, and I always thought that bohemian was some sort of culture. Not an actual people. Anyway. (They are, actually. They’re an artsy sort of culture in some of the big cities)

As it turns out they’re German, from around the area of the Czech Republic I believe.

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Bohemia

This is my countries coat of arms,  I do believe… I’ll have to do more reseach on all of this now. =)

 

I hope to visit my Grandpa later this summer(which reminds me, I still need to call them and see when they’re best free) and maybe I’ll ask if he knows more on my ancestry. It’s just interesting. I know that I am “In Christ” and a child of the Father, but there’s something concrete and solid in knowing where you’re from geographically.

http://www.newadvent.org/cathen/02612b.htm

More links.

Kewl.

Hey, this is a cool picture too. I was gonna save it for later, but decided not to.

Well. That’s it for now.

Love y’all,

-Phil

Me.

Alrighty, so I got tagged by Melissa in some memo/survey like thing. Here goes…

What were you doing ten years ago?
I was ten. When I was ten I was definitly in San Antonio and I guess that makes me in about 4-5 grade? So, I was probably doing a lot of stuff with my parents(No car yet! haha) and playing videp games, hanging out with friends… Ya know. Whatever 10-year-olds do.

What are five non-work things on my to-do list today?
1. Check Facebook, Myspace, blogs, email, etc etc… It’s more of a thing I do all day when I have nothing better to do than something I really check off on… So maybe this counts, maybe it doesn’t.
2. Reading, and finishing reading, Pagan Christianity.
3. Mow the grass. Eww. It’s nasty out.
4. Well, I was gonna hang out with my friend Chris, but I work later, so I’m not sure I really have the time. So, that’s kinda ruled out.
5. Devotional/Quiet time with the Lord. Because I havent done it for a few weeks, if not longer, and I really need to and want to.
I think that’s it…

What snacks do you enjoy?
Apples, bananas, cookies, crackers, popcorn, candy… Stuff like that. lol.

What would you do if you were a billionaire?
I’m not really sure. Because, I could say, “Hey, I’m gonna donate all/most of it to charities…” ya know. Something like that. And as much as that’d be great, I dunno that I would. I think I might just live the same(uhh, maybe buy a nicer car though) and just save it or something. But I would help people out financially so long as it doesnt seem like their just leeching off of me.

Where have you lived?
1. Born in San Bernardino, Ca
2. Then to Holland where my sister, Holli, was born. Haha.
3. Then to San Antonio, Tx, for 7 years
4. Then to Summerbridge, England for 3 years
5. Ohio for a year
6. Katy, Texas for… 4 years now? Yeah. 4 years I think. This is where I currently reside.
What jobs have you had?
1. Great American Cookie. Absolutly terrible job. The management was flimsy, at best, and really unstable.
2. A barista at Starbucks(where I still, currently work)
Eventually, I plan to do something in the ministry, but I’m still in school, so I work at Starbies part time and I’m staying there unless I find something better.

I am tagging:
1.Amber at http://atinnel.blogspot.com/

2.Mike at http://mikekrejci.blogspot.com/

I could tag more people, but I dont think anyone else would actually do it. And I dont read too many other blogs, etc etc. =)

And. I don’t have too much more to say or post on right now… So, I’ll just leave it at that. =)

Unity and Community

I’ve got a lot more on my mind than I usually do right now. And I’m not sure why. Perhaps its because I got about 2 hours of sleep last night. Or perhaps its because my gums have been hurting for a couple of days and it’s really annoying. But I think I’m mostly thinking about how I’m rather bored with two things. Life in today’s culture, and Christianity, which, as I find as I read “Pagan Christianity” has very little basis in how they operate Biblically. I’ll go into that later. I guess you can sum these two ideas into ”The Modern World”.

It’s true. I’m tired of it. Maybe its that I really can’t stand the relentless Texas heat or that I sometimes have a hard time speaking due to my low voice and quickness of speech. But I think its something else entirely(I think lack of sleep has caused me to be a bit more grouchy than usual. Honestly). It’s around this thing we call “Community”.

It seems rather fake to me at times. Which is weird to say, even now, as I reminisce about the good friends I have who will sacrifice much for me. I think this is closely linked to something we call “Unity”… Another thing lacking in the modern day church and world. I think that most people are closely tied to their friends and/or families, but not to the people around them(Neighbors- those who we don’t know, but should). Which, I have to watch myself when I say that, because I’m not so sure that I am either. I’d like to say that theoretically I am. Yes, I do believe that. But anyway, I do know this: We still lack unity as a people in middle class America. Why? Probably because we’re so focused on individualism. Which is why there are so many movies like James Bond and Indiana Jones which play on man’s personality of adventure and action, while leaving out something that destroys most men(most people) emotionally/relationally.

Huh.

So, maybe I just need to rant. That’s okay.

Anyway. So back to individualism. Is it bad? No. Not entirely. But we need people by our side and the Lord by our side. I guess you can call this interdependence. I dunno. I just know that unity and community is lacking in the world, which causes it to lack in the church or vica versa. Maybe neither of those work in the way I just listed, but I know it to be true in my inner being. I long for real community, for passion, and for God to direct me and lead the way as I make my way through life conforming me to the image of his son so that others may enter into this community I know as the Body of Christ.

Pagan Christianity. It’s a book I just started reading today(which I just might finish today too because its so good) that explores the roots of Christianity, essentially asking, “Why do we do what we do?” And they mostly mean on Sunday morning. But it goes through the actual church building and what all of that means too. For example. What does the usual set up of a Sunday morning worship room look like?(I’m gonna ask this in two parts. Now, and back in The Book of Acts)

Well. (NOW)

We have a centralized platform that is usually elevated that houses people to pray, preach, teach, sing, and make announcements over the congregation. This probably consists of 20 people max. 10 might be more like it.

We have pews. Which we are only free to, usually, pray or sing in. Talk too, but you talk too much and people assume you’re being disrespectful and a hinderance to other’s sacred “worship experience”. This all really gets to me because I see a pew and think of, as the book I’m reading will also describe, a passive, non-communicative group who simply come every sunday to go through some sort of religous ceremony. It’s as if we’re not expected or even wanted to make commentary or ask questions while this Sunday morning service is in procession. It’s never communicated like that verbally, but if you were to openly ask, while the preacher/speaker/teacher is filling his normal 20-45 minute sermon time about something he is discussing, I don’t think anyone in the church would take kindly to it.

So, what else do we have? Well, as I just listed, we have a preacher. Someone who apparently knows so much more than us about Spirituality and Jesus and love. We often put these people on a pedestal.

Anywho, I could go more and more into this, but all I really have to say is

1.) Where were we before?/Where should we be?/How should a church service be run?2

2.) It really distresses me that none of this really crossed my mind. Think about it. Why do most people dress up to go to church? Have you ever heard Biblical back up or basis for this? Right. Because there is none. And why do we have to meet in building that inhibit our community and unity? Why? It’s disgusting to me that I never picked up on this. Am I saying churchs are bad? Absolutly not. I’ll get into this in a little bit and probaby also in the coming days as I discover more on what the people who wrote Pagan Christianity have to say about all of this. I’m just saying, in the way we currently do church, it is disjointed and backwards. Boring sometimes. It’s centered around a message and music, rarely on the Christ we serve.

Alright. Part two. Then. And what do I mean by “then“? The Book of Acts and the Epistles. What did church look like for them? Homes. They met in homes and probably in what we would consider a living room or simply some place where everyone could be seen and heard. Why is this so special and unique? Christianity, pre church buildings, was the first belief system that didnt require a temple(they met in these in the old days) to worship in. Think about it. We didnt. WE ARE THE CHURCH. I mean, all who are in the body of Christ. We are. And we serve Jesus Christ, seeking to make him the head of our lives and the head of our world(s). God the Father is someone else we serve, but if you know much about the Christian faith, God the Father is technically God the Son, just as God the Spirit is. Anyway. All of this means that we should have an open forum to communicate. (And we generally don’t. It’s typically closed off with no questioning, no commentary, very little open dialogue.)

I know also that the early church ran by spontaneity. They didnt have a

Greeting/Into
Sing
Sermon
Sing
Tithe
The Lord’s Supper
Dismissal

like we do today. It wasnt that structured. It was organized, but not nearly that structured. It was operated as if under the Lordship and Headship of Jesus Christ himself.

So anyway. I just needed to talk. I still think these things will bother and haunt me for a bit, but I’m gonna go read some more of that book and while so doing, ponder how I can do things like the early church did especially with the things I’m involved with. Foolswork, namely.

I know I have more to say, but I dont think I could get it out fast enough or as I would so wish anyway.

So.

I don’t mean to distress or burden y’all with what is the truth of the church, but to merely call for transformation that comes from Christ that we seem to have forgotten. It is said in the Bible a few times that we are to “love the Lord our God with all our mind, heart, soul and strength…(and love your neighbor as yourself)” But do we? Not that Jesus loving is some sort of grossly mastered and remastered check list of things to do and things not to do, but how often do we passionatly pursue truth and/or Christ. How often do we question the things we hear? I know I dont. A lot of the time I assume them to be true.

Well.

Y’all have a blessed and wonderful rest of this day and tomorrow.

Seek the face of God and he will reveal himself to you.

Love,

-Phil

(Awkard closing remarks, but whatever =P)

P.S. Another reason modern life bores me is because it seems like people think they can be complete by getting a girlfriend/boyfriend/husband/wife and kids. Living the American middle class life doenst appeal to me. I, as I somewhat mentioned earlier, am looking for adventure, not stagnation and predicabitliy, and a life worthy of living. A life worthy of living for the glory of Jesus Christ, of course, but one that is not reliant on the current trappings of this world either. I dont want to be bound, chained, and gagged and become a slave to the enemy- rendered useless to Adonai. And I’m not saying I’m like gay or something- I just want to be what I do of and from God, not just because everyone else does it. Maybe I fear commitment and being stuck to something for the rest of my life, but… I dunno. I’m young and ready to serve the Lord with my life as a living sacrifice. That’s all I got to say about that. Kids are kewl and all and so are wives, but I dont think its the only thing I was built for. I’m not a machine, but a human being.

Thoughts.

I just typed this into google…:

“so, I’m interested in buying a motorcycle, but I know nothing about them.”

That didn’t really help. I’m not completly sure why I want one, but I know

1.) They look really cool.

2.) It would save a lot on gas.

3.) It would be, hopefully, more reliable than my current way of transportation which I’m convinced is going to just turn off or explode when I’m driving somewhere. That would really suck.

So anyway. I want a motorcycle, and I really know nothing about them and much less anything about fixing them up if I have problems. Luckily, my Dad does. So maybe… I can get one, get my licencse, get it registered and whatnot, and then have my Pappi fix it if I have problems. =) That’s wishful thinking.

But anyway. That’s about all I have to talk about right now. I need to work on my Spreadsheet for Foolswork still. It’s all just inputing data(in the way of Bible verses… but data none-the-less) and I keep procrastinating on doing it because its so tedious and boring. So, I think I’ll get a cold shower(I just played a soccer game with my probably-soon-to-be-band-mates(Can’t decide if I want to join them just yet)) and then head off to sleep.

Oh hey, I actually do have more to say. So I’m gonna keep on talking… =)

Huh. Well, I was thinking the past few days about how one of the common underlying idea that all people share. We’re all “In Transit”. We’re all awaiting something. Some await marraige. Some await a new car(motorcylce preferrably- in my case =P). Some await death- knowing it is inevitable, unavoidable(minus that dude in Genesis, Elijah, and Jesus(resurrection counts right?)). Some await the Resurrection, and the return of Christ. Anyway. You get the idea.

I’ll have more to expand on later about that… probably. I just don’t know what else to say- I just found that interesting though. Cool cool.

Well, ya’ll have a great evening and a good rest of the week. The Lord be with you.

-Phil

Golgotha, Metal, Jonah, Motorcycles, and Naps…

Alright. So I just got  off of work, haven’t posted in a few days, and I kinda just want to talk. Just cuz. Then I’m gonna go get a shower. Hmm.

So, I was thinking today about getting a tattoo of Golgotha. I want to do more research on it, but I know that Golgotha means “the place of the skull” and it is where Jesus Christ of Nazareth died. I think that’s either in Hebrew or in Greek. One of the two. I kinda got the idea from this Impending Doom shirt…:

What do ya’ll think? I think it would be pretty cool to do that skull with the three crosses on it like this shirt, but maybe make it more of an earthy color like a light brown. But a solid dark grey might be cool too. Huh. I dunno. If I got it I think I would get it on my shoulder. And it would probably be fairly large… taking up all of my shoulder. =)

Furthermore… haha…

Hey, there was this cute girl I saw at work today. Random. But whatever. (Actually, a lot come in, but I rarely make note of it to anyone.)

Anyway. I was thinking that I might want to invest in a motorcylce here soon as gas prices rise and so do my traveling expenses. I’ve been driving a lot. I used to fill up my tank 2-3 times a week, but I think it’s been closer to once a week right now since I’m not driving to and from school. It would give me an excuse to get cool leather jackets as well. Haha. But I definitly want to look into a smaller car(if not a motorcycle- that would be tight!). I feel like I drive a tank. A small(er) car would suffice as I really don’t need the room anyway. I think my parents just bought the car I have now(a Ford Explorer) to insure I wouldn’t die if I got in a wreck. Haha. Like seriously.

Okay. So. Something else I’ve been thinking about lately. Actually, just today and yesterday, but… I think its passed my mind a while back as well. Jonah.

(P.S.-Is it just me, or is it really pretty weird that Jonah prayed inside of the whale(or that he was even alive in there!?). Like, is that even possible? Apparently so. I dont think Jonah is made mention of in the New Testament, but in relation to Jesus’ death- 3 days/3 nights in Sheol. The common grave.)

The prophet from the old testement?

Who was eaten by a whale?

I think I really relate to him. He wasn’t the best leader(I might be, but I’m still working on speaking proper English =P), he was actually probably a loner. He got angry over really silly things.- God said he was gonna destroy this city that Jonah was supposed to go to in Assyria, and when Jonah does actually go there, they repent in traditonal manner- “in sackcloth and ashes”. And so, God doesn’t destroy them. Jonah’s like, “Man, this sucks. I wanted to see them die!” And so, the book actually seems rather unresolved clocking in at just 4 chapters ending with Jonah still complaining. However. Jonah did praise God with much thanksgiving and with a spirit of joy after the whale spit him back out… =D

Anywho. It’s a cool book and I definitly want to do more study into it.

By the way. Check out 7 Horns 7 Eyes. They rock. Fo’ realz.

(P.S.2- yay! I figured out how to HTML properly. And. Okay, so the meaning behind the name of this band is really cool. In Revelations 4, I believe it is, there is a description of a slain lamb(Jesus- the Risen Lord) as having 7 eyes and 7 horns. I really like that. In an interview somewhere or on their site or something they say why they picked their name, but I like the fact that they went with something that was (1) Worshipful, (2) Different, (3) Within their genre(metal/thrash/death). Really cool stuff.)

Hmm. I dont really think I have too much more to say. I had a lot of fun practicing/jamming with a metal band named “Habitance” last night. That was awesome! Furthermore… they have something called “Soccer Sunday”, where they, as a band(I think) go and play soccer at this High School downtown)-ish). Anyway. So, I’m invited to that. YAY!

Other than that… I’m kinda wondering if I can balance Church(Foolswork, actually), work(Starbies), a social life, spending time with Jesus, and maybe joining this band- all at one time. I’m not in school right now so I’d tack that on when I am, but… I think it would work. It would take more discipline on my part, especially when school starts back up, but it sounds like it should work really very well.

I think I’m tired enough to get a nap. So, I’m gonna do that. Shower and eat later.

Haha. I dunno why I post so much about my personal life, but its just fun and a way of getting whatever I want to say… said… and such. People probably read this and are like… “what the crap?” But that’s okay. I treat this more like a journal really anyway.

Shalom,

-Phil