The Feebleness and Depravity of Man

“But court records show Lathern has confessed to investigators that she never had cancer and planned to use the money to get breast implants — something she said she thought would save her seven-month marriage…”

-http://www.aolhealth.com/condition-center/breast-cancer/news/article/_a/bbdp/trista-lathern-allegedly-fakes-breast/759177?icid=main|main|dl3|link3|http%3A%2F%2Fwww.aolhealth.com%2Fcondition-center%2Fbreast-cancer%2Fnews%2Farticle%2F_a%2Fbbdp%2Ftrista-lathern-allegedly-fakes-breast%2F759177

We have good intentions, really! The problem is,  we don’t know how to save ourselves. We crave power, not God or Godliness (unless it gets us what we want)…

Anyway. I don’t post this to say she’s dumb, I’m just saying, we all do this to some degree. I think saving your marraige is fine! But that definitely won’t happen with larger breasts. Carnal enjoyment has never gotten man anywhere. Except… sin and death.

“If you cling to your life, you will lose it, and if you let your life go, you will save it. (Luke 17:33 NLT)”

Oh, the truthfulness of the Scriptures! And how bitter they can be on occasion…

In Christ,

-Metal Phil

Discrepancies in Time

I haven’t posted here in quite sometime. I think I might start posting again though. I’m definitely a fan of blogging, but… It’s kind of like journaling or writing in a diary in the sense that sometimes it’s just really awfully boring and tedious and pointless. Ya know.

 

So, update(s)? Been busy with school and work. I started the Bachelor’s program this Fall, which has been very intensive, but incredibly awesome! My prof compares this 2 year program (upon its end I’ll have a bachelor’s in Biblical Counseling) like drinking water from a fire hose! It’s so much information! But, it’s very very good and I’m glad I’m here doing this.

 

Sometimes life has this feeling of being incredibly long or incredibly short. I’m not sure why it is people have a hard time grasping the concept of time, but it just is. The past few months have gone by so fast I’ve been wondering where they disappeared to!

 

Anyway, I don’t have much to say but I wanted to say “Hey!” Pretty much. =)

 

In the Risen LORD,

-Metal Phil

I’m not a professional

Alright, so maybe I’m just cheezy, and I talk about facebook and the status’s I post there, but I like it and I think it’s fun and interesting.

Anyway. I’m not a professional. I don’t know all of the answers, and, I too, still have to search for God on a daily basis. I don’t know a lot of things. I’m in this weird spot in my life where it feels like school is neverending. I mean, I really like school, but I’m ready to start living on my own and moving out and stuff like that. I dont want to speed up the process, but its a weird place to be. Because everything is now in my hands. I work at Starbucks and it matters if I get enough sleep the night before so I can function properly, and it matters that I’m engaged in whatever my parents need me to do for them because I’m still living under their roof. I still have 2-3 years of school to finish up and I’m loving it now that I found what I enjoy(I go to Bible College) and I still have yet to decide exactly what I want to do with my life and time when I’m out.

Anyway.

I do need to get some sleep, but I just wanted to update a little bit. Nothings really changed. I’m just constantly realizing that I am God’s son- that is my identity- that is the only way I can live.

I need to write a list of stuff to do tomorrow:

- Work.

- Return those running/track shoes.

- Work out.

- Clean my bedroom, my bathroom, and the rest of the house if possible. Maybe I’ll just do the bedroom tomorrow.

- Research ways for paying for, or to help pay for, school.

- Watch a movie. I rented “Dracula”(terrible movie! I read the book and it just was disappointing. In fact. I turned it off half way through), “The Exorcism of Emily Rose”, and “Premonition”.

- Hang out with friends. That’s always fun. I don’t need to remind myself to do this.

OH, right so… I wanted to start like a bible blog of somesort… But I dont think I can do it via computer. So I’m gonna use pencil/pen/crayon/marker and paper and go old school. That way and I can be artisitic while doing it and able to draw pictures, and be fully free in doing this. I want to go through Genesis at about a chapter a day. Including illustrations, much of the bible written out, me having read the commentary with it, and any thoughts I may have. 

That’s all

Good Night y’all. 

-Phil

METAL!

I am nothing

without the good grace of Jesus Christ and Yahweh!

Simply put, I needed to go pick up my sister from somewhere and I was growing impatient for really no reason at all. Now, this bothered me for two reasons. For the one I just listed- that I didn’t care to wait for her and her friend, and two, because I know things like that shouldn’t bother me.

Right then and there, sitting in the car, in the 100 degree Texas heat, the Holy Spirit reminded me that without Christ I am nothing. I’m not useless, it’s just that I often forget that Jesus Christ is my sustainer. Or, that he should be. Instead, I make myself the sustainer, hoping to do EVERYTHING by myself. It’s simply impossible.

While this might seem like a small act, it was what I needed to be reminded of God’s great love for me.

Lord, I lay down my idles. Reconstruct my life and what I do with my time to honor you in EVERYTHING. Enable me to lay down my life for you, as you have done for me. I am unworthy, but very very thankful.

It is for you I live for, and for no one and nothing else if not to bring glory to your name, to love you in ever increasing degrees, and to love others so they might know you as I do.

Akumal was good

We had a lot of fun! =)

I could go into more detail, but I’m not. haha.

Still seeking

It’s a process, I know. And a life long commitment, but I want to do things for  the glory of God and to love Him with my whole heart, mind, and strength- and to love my neighbor as myself. Not in vain, but for the hope of the gospel to desend on others and to become known to them.

More than anything

I just want to talk right now. To express my feelings and loves in words. To exalt the Lord. I don’t want this post to be “oh man, this guy must really love Jesus” post, because it’s not. I do love Yahweh, but I don’t want to be known as that guy. Don’t worship me, worship God. Kay. So.

I’ve been pretty good as of late. I dunno why I say that. Sometimes I wonder why my current feelings have to dictate how well I’m doing. They do for everybody nearly, but they shouldn’t. Because that says my well being lays in the hands of circumstances. I dont want that to be true for me. Yeshua sustains me and brings me life and peace. I dont expect him to bring me physical or spiritual or monetary (or or, etc etc) blessing, but to worship and adore Him for who he is. The great I AM. Jesus Christ said “I am the way, the truth and the life (John 14:6)” and that’s really been growing on me in the past few years.

The Way. He is the only way. The only. Any other way apart from him is foolishness.

The Truth. He is true. The only truth.

The Life. He is the life. That says, to me, that any other way apart from him is not only foolish, but it is also death. And that stretches even to my life or your life and seems to indicate that the way we live our lives, the things that we do, and who or what we worship matters because without the Lord we are nothing. We are living in death.

I dont think I really had a point with that, but it really reminds me of who I serve and worship and why. Not out of obligation, but reminder that if I dont, there’s no point to my life. Seriously.

So. I’ve decided I no longer want to desire Biblical knowledge but to grow in my relationship with the risen God and King. I’m gonna keep going to CBS, but I want my relationship with the Lord to be at the forefront of all I do. Keeping in mind that Biblical knowledge is great, but it is not what I should seek.

Also, I dont want others to be my guide or model for faith, but Jesus Christ. Ultimately, I worship the Lord, and I want to continue to become more like the archetype. Jesus Christ. The perfect model for humanity.

I KNOW I have more to say, but I can’t think of it all right now. So, metal picture and then I’m gonna get some sleep. =)

Fist pumping action! (Wisdom of BTA)

Oh. So Cornerstone really was awesome. I know I’ve said that like 3 times now and said I’d go into more detail, but, I didnt. So there ya go.

I’m going to Akumal, Mexico in a week. For vacation. I’m so exctied! It’s gonna be schweet! Like so awesome. We’re leaving Tuesday from the airport and come back the following Tuesday. Soooooooo, I’ll be gone for a whole week! yay! And, apparently, this place is really nice. We’re basically staying in our own house. My parents get a room. My sister gets a room. I get a room. And I think each room has its own bath/shower unit too. That’s rediculous y’all. And by rediculous, I mean, crazy awesome kewl! =)

Akumal, Mexico

 

Akumal, Mexico

In other news…

I’m almost through the Old Testament. I began reading approximately last summer and I haven’t been very good at doing it everyday, but I’m in a few books before the end. I’m looking forward to reading through Matthew. And the other gospels too, actually.

Closing…

May the God of glory impart truth, wisdom, and guidance in your life. That you may be complete and in relationship with the Creator God, Lord of All. Praise be to his name.

Amen.

-Phil

Just got back from Cornerstone

I’ll hopefully post more later!

Love,

-Phil

Cornerstone 2008

I’m definitly leaving today for Cornerstone!

My band, Habitance, is playing two times on Friday… 1AM and again at 11AM… We’re leaving today around 7ish, gonna, hopefully, get there about noon or so Thursday… sleep/chill/watch bands/explore Cornerstone and then play, sleep, play, and then probably leave. So yeah. 15 hours in the car though. It’ll all be good.

But I need to go pack. And I figure I’ll put my list of stuff on here since it’s most convenient to me at the time…

Shampoo
Conditioner
Body Soap
Towel(s)
An extra pair of jeans or shorts
Two extra shirts
boxers, socks, etc…
Books to read
Ipod… go to Walmart and exchange the one I bought so I can buy the more expensive one that would charge and enable me to play music all at the same time…
Sleeping bag
Pillow
Money for food, merch, and an at the gate ticket
phone charger
tooth brush
tooth paste

That’s basically it… I want to go buy a new pair of Converse as well…

So yeah.

=)

It’s gonna be fun.

May the Lord prepare our hearts for this journey and for the times that we actually play, in so doing, affecting the lives of others in a positive impact for the Gospel of Jesus’ Christ’s sake. I could say more, but I really just want this to be a time of fun, getting to know the guys, and worshipping the Lord.

Blessings,

-Phil

I dunno if this is funny or not, but it’s true…

I just saw this on AOL followed by a whole bunch of pictures…

“Wow. Stars really are just like us. They fall down! They stuff their faces! They pick their noses! See photos of these glamorous stars having very human moments.”

No. No they’re not.

Duh!

Of course they are just like us!

I dunno that it’s the everyday person who treats moviestars like this, but the media definitly makes it seem like the moviestars are gods.

So yeah.

That’s all I got.

Why do people think the stars are gods?

I dunno. Good question. Probably because when they don’t worship the God of the universe, Yahweh, they have to find something to worship… Thus… people. In the old days it was the same way, but they would also worship rocks, and other parts of nature. Etc etc.

Hey, I can actually put in a photo of my band now… Totally melt y’alls faces off…

 

G’night.

Love,

-Phil